Sunday, December 06, 2009 @1:29 AM
Well, I got what I wanted. Kevin finally asked me to be his girl, after 4 years of waiting. I thought of it for a week n decided to give up on Rafique. But 1 month after being with Kevin, I found out that he wasn't what I expected...Terrible...And just yesterday morning, he broke up with me. And it was actually quite a relief for me coz the night before I wanted to dump him already =p. We quarrelled almost every single time we talk to each other. Stupid but, there really was no feeling of love or whatever not. Kevin is such a disapointment. I waited 4 years for him n now it just ended like that! Goodness!!! Being together with him was great, as in going out with him n being beside him. I feel well protected n im not so worried about almost everything including my parents. I could chill~ Other than those points, he is absolutely the worst! He puts his mother FIRST n me last-.- why do I say that? becuz he was so caught up with worrying abt his mother n ending up neglecting me. He is so pathetic man... And when I didn't sms him, he wouldn't even bother to sms me-.- for 3 whole days ya know!!! ARGH!!! I was so angry with him, moreover he didn't even bother to pacify me or make me happy. He only breaks me down n leaves me in tears...And Rafique would always be the one to make me happy again, he is so sweet! XD. All the explainations n stupid excuses kevin gave me was absolutely pathetic! Like "Oh I was bathing" "I was helping my mum" And sometimes no reply at all. For that 3 whole days of not contacting me, he said "I am sick...not feeling well...I was sleeping" WTF LA! AS IF ANYONE WILL SLEEP FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS! That's like 72 hours! So what? He's a sleeping prince now?! Wth... I ren(tolerate) for 1 month...Terrible as hell...every night I would be crying...haix...Well now im out of it! He was the one to asked to be with me n now he just broke up with me-.- He didn't achieve anything... I want so much to just care for him...but He is just making things worse n more difficult for me. I feel so alone when he is not beside me! One sms I have to wait for 3 hours! N when he was dating my cousin he actually replied all her smses...wtf...He has gone from bad to worse...He even blamed me for his injured finger! He blames me for everything...He is the absolute pathetic guy I've met. Hmph...And the first guy who broke up with me. When I asked him qns, he will say "thats a stupid qn" WHAT KIND OF BF SAYS THAT!?...I hate him now... I want to love him, but he doesn't seem like he wants it. So...FINE! I'd rather spend my time on a guy who actually cares! Kevin is absolutely pathetic! I HATE HIM! HE IS AN IDIOT!